the next sunlight ♥

2011-12-31T13:01:00.002+08:00

dawnlhr.tumblr.com

I'm switching to tumblr. But I may still occasionally hop over to blogger. I've stuck w blogger for almost 7-8 years afterall. Yikes I sound old. Anw, happy new year's eve! (:

2011-12-27T10:20:00.001+08:00

Last Party of 2011.

The past weekend has been fulfilling yet tiresome. Too much meat, too many late nights, too little rest. 2011 is coming to a close. Just been to the doctor's, just had my medicine, now I'm too drowsy. The month of gatherings has proven that my body is weak, and my health in bad condition. Sigh.

22/12/2011: Had my nails done then dinner @ Ma Maison w Qing & KK. (:

24/12/2011: Xmas Eve! Attended a birthday party in the aftn then helipad at night. (:

25/12/2011: Lunch at cg w Aaron's friends, Sherlock Holmes 2 and Lyn's bbq later at night plus supper at newton. Bloats.

2011-12-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

I feel like switching to tumblr. Because why? I just realised there's an iPhone app for tumblr. Feels so noobz to just realise. & seriously, everything is much more convenient. HOW?! I've been living w blogger for forever!

2011-12-12T00:39:00.003+08:00

Unfazed.

When everything starts to get dimmer and you lose hope and lose sight, remember never to forget how hope felt like - a warm bright spark. Don't let what is fading away or has faded away pull you any step backwards. Keep going front and don't ever stop.

2011-12-07T10:30:00.000+08:00

Craze.

Just discovered a super cute app, intro-ed by Mari - decopic. But, just like instagram it crops out pictures into squares. ): Cute thing is, no need for neoprints anymore, cause the app is like a mini neoprint maker. Predicting the cine one will daopi soon!

Anw, just collected my driving license at singpost and my asos parcel just arrived in time for Xmas!! Can't wait for my other package to arrive!! Hope it comes soon. Writing all the Xmas cards and wrapping presents now, then letting it rot on my table for a while more. I like to prepare early. Lol. Better than rushing last minute. (:

2011-11-27T17:13:00.002+08:00

Chili's Forever.

2011-11-18T13:35:00.001+08:00

BOOMZX.

Out for dinner w Dan & Clarine yest. Crys was ill and Yiling wanted to study so they didn't come. Supposed to go strictly pancakes but didn't in the end. Met Dan at ion, got my stuff then walked down to dhoby w gong cha and talked and walked and laughed. Had HTHT w Dan and loved it! More next time.

Received SOS call from Jo when I got home. So changed and drove to Lyn's (Yes I passed my driving on 11/11/11 :D Got a weird fate w these numbers. My anni w b is 10/10/10. Wonder what will happen next year.) They were baking red velvet cupcakes. Cupcakes idk if edible and their frosting damn watery. So I suggested to redo. Lol so much work for a guy I don't even personally know. His sis Glenna came (also from IJ btw). Drove them to cold storage at jelita cause Jo alr damn tired to drive.. Got ingredients went back then baked till siao. Super tiring. Till 4am manz. Tired max. OMG ROUND 2 later on. Faints. Hope won't bake till so late. Btw later baking the exact same cheesecake I made for Aaron's 21st. Just different design. More girl only. Hahahahah!

2011-11-15T20:27:00.000+08:00

LYNETTECHONG:

SOMETIMES WHEN YOU TAKE PEOPLE FOR GRANTED, THEY HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO GET UPSET/DISAPPOINTED BECAUSE EVERYONE HAS A BOTTOM LINE/BOILING POINT. DON’T EXPECT EVERYONE TO CATER TO YOUR WHIMS OR FANCIES. NO ONE IS OBLIGED TO. AND UNTIL YOU REALIZE THAT, YOU’LL CONTINUE DISAPPOINTING/UPSETTING THOSE WHO GENUINELY CARED. IF YOU KNOW YOU TOOK IT TOO FAR, TAKE A STEP BACK AND REFLECT. PEOPLE AROUND YOU HAVE FEELINGS. THEY GET ANGRY/UPSET/HURT. & THEY’RE NOT OBLIGED TO MAKE YOU HAPPY.

2011-11-09T22:26:00.002+08:00

Aaron's 21st.

Spent almost 2 days preparing his cake. Spread out the process. Cheesecake w cream cheese frosting and the same frosting in blue to pipe out the shape and the sides. And got small silver pearls for decor! Not really observable though.

Otw to his surprise! Super excite & happy cause he doesn't know about anything! Except the lunch on Sunday. Usually he'll guess everything correct. Lol.

Got a room at the Fullerton Hotel, it's a package so it was pretty worth it. In-room dining experience. Room service w a flair. Hahahah. He was happy w the steak and tiramisu cause he'd been craving it.

Went for hippo tour later in the evening after dinner. While waiting for the hotel staff to set up the room decor and prepare the cake for us. They were super helpful. (: The night view was super awesome. Behaved like a tourist and a little girl. Excite only. Hahahah.

Went back to the hotel, then presented him his birthday present and cake. He super loved the cake. My greatest creation so far. Lolol. Damn hard work. :/ Damn awkward to sing birthday song alone btw..

Went to The White Rabbit @ Dempsey Hill for brunch after our breakfast at Fullerton. Was so super full so ordered from the kids menu. Hahahahah. Who has breakfast at 10am then lunch at 1pm? Dies. Haven't got the pics cause they're super slow in uploading so guess this is the only one I have right now..

Loved everything and was super happy. Happy that my boyf also v happy (he ought to be).

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BABY.

Hope you were mega touched by everything. (:

2011-11-04T14:59:00.000+08:00

YAY! Today is b's 21st! And it's Friday. Can't wait to celebrate for him. Just finished w the cake. Omg so tiring and worst ever. Took 2 days to finish baking and decorating it. :/ It's gonna be a great weekend! Plus plus Monday is public holiday. Hahah. So tempted to upload pics but in order for the surprise to still be a surprise, I have to be more patient. (;

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY AARON TAN!
LOVE YOU FOREVER. XX.

2011-11-03T23:52:00.001+08:00

This Made Me Cry...

In a relationship, married or not… You should read this.

Marriage.

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.

Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Disclaimer: This wasn’t written by me. I saw it on the internet and decided to share it here.

2011-10-31T16:41:00.000+08:00

yippee yay!! just booked airtix to Taiwan last night for Feb next year. super happy!! floats. too :D to stand. Taiwan here I come!

2011-10-23T22:32:00.001+08:00

I used to have a bad experience w shu uemura few years back at the wisma departmental store. From then on I was quite turned off by their staff and products. But but. After a couple of my friends raved about shu uemura and recommended it, I kinda swayed and went to the ion outlet. This v nice lady attended to me the few times I was there. Then I finally bought their UV mousse to try cause it's super lightweight and like a primer for the face. Didn't wanna try the new BB mousse cause I alr have BB cream. Face architect (liquid foundation) next after I deplete my mac studio fix (powder foundation). (:

2011-10-14T10:01:00.000+08:00

First.

09/10/2011

Lunch: il Lido @ Sentosa Golf Club. Super miss the truffle risotto and crabmeat pasta! Great view also w golfers prancing arnd on the grass looking for a tiny ball. Lol.

Checked-in at Hotel Michael afterwards. Thank you b. (:

Headed to rock bar at Hard Rock Hotel for a drink after dinner.

10/10/2011

Went to USS after breakfast! Yay. Postponed going there for so long just for this day. Hahahah. Super excited and happy the whole time like a kid. :D

ZOMG the battlestar rides were the highlight. Damn proud of myself. Hahah. Cause I managed to try both human and cylon. Highly doubted I'd have been able to even step foot in the queue last time. Hahahah. Both were damn scary for me though. Yikes. But damn exciting also. Hahah.

Whoo mummy ride was good. But the safety precautions could've been better. My harness wasn't even tight and the ride just took off alr. ZZZ. I was freaking out la. Lucky Aaron pushed it down for me...

Took photos w a few more mascots but lazy to upload. Lol.

Had lunch/dinner at KT's grill. Food was good. Nice meats and great service. (:

V V V V Super happy 2 days spent w my baby. X. (:

2011-10-08T23:30:00.001+08:00

Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever. The best thing to do in these circumstances is to wake somebody else up, so that they can feel this way, too.

2011-10-03T00:06:00.001+08:00

A Circle Has No Beginning.

Every time, every month, again and again. It just never gets better. And relying on mere medicine just isn't good enough. Because it just ain't enough. Sigh. Iron is the key and yes hello I have been eating tons of beef. Okay maybe not tons but still.

All part of me is dying to tear apart, to break free. The squeeze is so tight that I feel all my juices in my organs are dripping and running dry. I've learnt to deal with it better through the years alr, thankfully, but I need a cure. One more thing, the emotional part of it all. A feel like a freaking vampire - every emotion is heightened. I can feel totally sad when there is nothing to be sad about at all, and all other emotions like happiness or anger. And they don't make sense. Angst is what I usually feel most times. Not many have seen me at my worst. Think maybe none of my friends have. But oh well, nothing like Gordon Ramsay for sure.

Yes yes, pure drama, whatever. Unless you're ever a woman you'll never know. A couple of my friends have the same problem. Even break out in cold sweat, gotta lie in bed whole day. That's how freaking bad it is. In case you haven't noticed. The topic is menstrual cramps. HATE IT TO THE FREAKING CORE.

Wah lau plus this throat of mine that never recovers completely. Bangs head on the wall. Sobs.

2011-10-01T11:03:00.000+08:00

Always,

2011-09-18T23:40:00.000+08:00

Had dinner w Lyn and Jo earlier this evening at sushi tei, then back to Lyn's place to watch the first ep of vampire diaries season 3. So sad zomg. Teary-eyed and all. Meeting them this Friday for nailz again. Gellish this time round. (; Gossip girl coming out soon also! So much excitement in the month of Sept! And, can't wait for school to start next week. Really, I've already come to appreciate that it's better to be studying than working. Gotta work hard for my honours the next 2 years.

2011-09-13T12:18:00.002+08:00

I start noticing all the minuscule details after every final destination movie and become so much more aware of my surroundings than I usually am. My ears listen more. Every sound is amplified. My eyes dart around more often every few seconds. And I become more afraid. Trust me, I'm not good at being observant over what happens around most times. Maybe I should watch each movie every morning when I wake; Monday to Friday, 1 to 5. So I'll be more alert and notice everything. Lol. Just kidding. I'll die of paranoia.

Best part. Amanda and I actually managed to watch the movie and have our dinner at the same time. Toast to that. Before the suggestion I was really highly doubtful I could even open my mouth, much less eat.

Effects not that awesome as with all the others. But, great way to becoming less blur. Lol.

2011-08-31T23:55:00.002+08:00

Catch-Ups.

Last Sunday (21 Aug), I met the IJ people at timbre substation for Astrid's farewell. She's going to Hong Kong to further her studies in music. All the best and till we meet! (;

Met them again tonight for dinner at glutton's bay. Then had a spectacular water show that MBS displays every evening. Had a little bit of mooncake sharing and HTHT and stuff. Loves!

2011-08-27T21:57:00.001+08:00

Blast From The Past.

Hahah. It's been a while since I've written anything in this space. I've been so busy and lazy w photos and whatnot. So...here goes!

30 July 2011:

Jo's 20th at Butter. BLAST.

31 July 2011:

Dinner w Dora Yeehui Layer!

Nandos then Starbucks. :D

Started the Harry Potter Series somewhere in August. At the Half Blood Prince now and it is SO GOOD. Rowling is a genius. HP Fanatic now. Hee. Don't judge me if you haven't read the book. Everyone I know who has read the book have thirsted and craved to read more than I'll ever know. (:

08 August 2011:
Sending Dora off at the Airport.

Farewell Dora.

Have fun in Sweden.

Till we meet again. (:

09 August 2011:

NATIONAL DAY.

Marina Barrage. ♥

MORE UPDATES SOON! Busy. Gonna get ready to go Neverland now w Aaron & friends. (:

2011-08-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

Literally saw a silver lining over a dark cloud earlier this night. Was actually the moonlight btw, but it shone through the cloud and the line was so visible. But the supposedly magical iPhone4 was too ordinary and incapable of capturing such beauty through its lens.

2011-08-07T12:05:00.000+08:00

It's already August. Gah, been so quick. I've been in nua mode for as long as I've remembered since exams ended. Even though working but still damn nua. Hahah. Anyhow, Capt America later after my hair spa! (;

Will post more updates after National Day. Dinner w Yeehui Layer Dora Theodore & Aaron tmr night. Excite yet at the same time ... We'll meet again next year!

2011-07-26T19:01:00.000+08:00

Finally, it's over. Great series though. Probably the best yet. Caught it yesterday at IMAX. The 3D is unparalleled to the other theaters really. Visual and audio so clear when you reach out your hands you it is like you're in the show. No kidding. And yes there were some goondos in front who reached out their hands during the 3D presentation. Gosh I'll miss Potter, and I believe everyone else will. Gonna rush to buy the whole set of DVDs or BluRay when it comes out! :D Hee, wanna watch all the 3D shows at IMAX now. Jjang!

2011-07-16T19:58:00.000+08:00

best sticky date and toffee pudding ever!

♥ marmalade pantry.

2011-07-12T17:15:00.000+08:00

if i die young, bury me in satin.

lay me down on a bed of a roses.

sink me in the river, at dawn.

send me away with the words of a love song.

2011-07-11T11:24:00.001+08:00

Spit Some Fire Out.

So on sat, I went for a haircut, at Essensuals Bugis by Bryan. He's good. (: Seriously, the end result was not what I had in mind at all. Wanted to just cut shoulder length since my hair was growing so long it was at my waist. I remember I promised myself years ago that never will I ever sport short hair again. But... Sigh. And now I'm gonna promise myself again, no more short hair. Maybe it doesn't look THAT bad afterall, but but but it's so short! Hahah. Totally not used to it at all and when it's hot, cannot even tie my hair have to let my hair be in contact with my sticky and sweaty neck. When you have long hair, you have the option to tie everything up. But anw, this hair is gonna stay for now.

Met Lyn and Jo for dinner at Gyu Kaku @ Chijmes. Super nice wagyu beef! Yums. Then headed to 1 Altitude for drinks. Super awesome view at 63 stories high. (:

2011-07-05T16:08:00.002+08:00

Blast.

I've been so lazy to blog and everything. It's been a really long time. Already it's July. So just have been doing a lot lately. Just to summarise.

Started working part-time. Idk if it's good or bad, but everything happens for a reason.
Fathers' Day @ ikoi. Mum's birthday @ swatou.
OPI silver shatter. Need I say more?
President's Charity Bazaar at work which was kinda exciting. Goodwork Park Hotel durian desserts and Garrett popcorn. :D
Met up with my Qing and KK at chompz as usual, then monodeal at the dessert place. And Qing was late, as usual. This girl uh...
OOOOOOOOOH discovered F21 above orchard mrt (it's totally significant!). Every boy's nightmare. Oh, but they sell guy's stuff too.
Caught on to "Vampire Diaries" Season 2! Reckon I'll finish with it soon.
Finished "How I Met Your Mother". Can't wait for the next one!
Aaron had braces put on. His dentist is just weird.
Movie at Henderson Waves.
Rode behind a bicycle and it was worse than a roller coaster. But became much better after putting trust in the rider. Can't ride for nuts.
Transformers 3! Pity Megan Fox did not star in it. The 3D was amazing, effects were great.
Dinner with Acres mates. Lamenting about how we only meet twice a year, but congratulating the fact that we still have endless to talk about. Lol.

EDIT W PIX.

2011-06-13T10:39:00.000+08:00

Highlights.

Updates! Haven't been in this space for a while now. Since I'm free now just might as well. Starting work tmr! Have been slacking arnd for a month or so, doesn't sound too long but my days pass real slow and I don't like it. Here goes...

Thursday

Made tamago and unagi sushi! Gave most of the tamago to Owen & Diouf cause they only eat tamago. Btw the tamago was made from scratch. (:

***

Friday

Went to Nazt at Club Street for dinner on the 10th. The food was great. We thought the portions were gonna be small so Aaron ordered more. Love the angel hair pasta, but was super full. Service was impeccable. (:

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Saturday & Sunday

View from hotel.

Infinity pool @ Skypark

View from Tower 1.

Stayed at MBS for a night. The view was breathtaking and the whole place was just super posh. Loved the suite room too. Didn't bring my swimsuit so didn't swim in the pool. There were so many kids shouting arnd anw lol. These are just some photos, not all. Some still stuck in my iPhone too. Maybe next time. All in all, everything was great. But they should really install some locks for the toilet even though no locks make the door nicer - people inside the toilet will be v insecure.

2011-05-30T17:07:00.002+08:00

Looking through all the cards I've received throughout the years. Even though some from whom I've drifted apart from. But still it warms my heart. And those random exchanges of messages in class. I've kept most! So old an dusty. Gonna keep them forever. Lol.

2011-05-25T15:59:00.000+08:00

Stereo Love.

Met up with KK on wed to shop and talk! :D

Made mango pudding as requested by Aaron on Thursday.

Shoot coke ad on sat. Damn tiring had to wake up really early and it ended up raining at cine so we had to wait for the rain to stop. But great got extra pay for waiting. Lol. Met Aaron to shopshop a bit around town then Timbre for dinner to celebrate Jh's and Irene's birthday.

Supposed to swim but woke up later than expected so we cancelled it. Went town instead. Got a great deal. Aaron managed to get nice shirts from fourskin and free parking at heeren. Wow the sale. Love the sale.

Met up with Qing and Eliza on Monday. Qing is now taka girl. Hahah. Stupid girl just started work today and text me say damn bored. Miss working together. Don't like to work alone and lunch alone. )':

Had nails done with Lynette and Josephine @ fareast. Took like 2 hrs plus or even 3 hrs. Lol. Jo was done the quickest and she was like damn bored.

Anw, since it has been a long time, here are some camwhore pix. I haven't camwhored in a long time, really. :D

2011-05-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

I closed my "past" blog. More like deleted it. The past shall remain in the past. No remnants in the present because this is not where it belongs. Considered changing my current url, but this is who I was to begin with and nothing has changed, so nothing will.

2011-05-18T00:42:00.002+08:00

Second V Day This Year.
(V for Vesak).

This long weekend was awesome, quote Barney. So of course after "years" of not stepping into somewhere by the name of Orchard, there we went on Saturday. And shopped I did. My crave to shop - it was like a vampire's thirst for blood. Then went to marina south pier at night for dinner. It was something Aaron prepared quite a while ago, before my exams. He booked the dinner for a post-exam celebration kinda thing, to reward me for studying hard. Was kinda seasick for a bit. Hee. (:

Then on Sunday, we went to swim. Omg swear I haven't touched pool waters in years. But I'm glad I still remember how to swim. Lol. Went safra at mount faber and the lap pool was disappointing. Think tpy swimming complex like bigger lor. And their pool bar not even open... To further satisfy shopping cravings, more shopping was done at vivo. Since during exams period I always stayed home and didn't get any chance to spend my money. Lolol. Went back Aaron's place for dinner. His mum cooked curry. Then popped over to his neighbour's place to gamble a bit. Went out for ice-cream but it was too late so the only place left was like dempsey's b&j. Saw an accident otw there btw, so scary. The motorist totally flew out of his bike. We were both stunned.

& we finally sat down proper for a game of monodeal. Have been so long since we touched that pile of cards. Upped the stakes to 4 sets to win. (;

Swam again on Monday. Aaron took leave btw cause it's so sian to go ns on Monday then holiday on Tuesday again, like retarded only. Was so tired my arms like totally aching and the sun was so strong I got a damn visible tan now. Makes me think twice about wanting to tan anymore in the future. Went home and took a long fat well-deserved nap. Went back Aaron's place for dinner cause there was still leftover curry. Yummy! Watched Meet the Parents again. Lol it was a show ten years ago and still so funny. Feel damn old. :/

Woke up early to buy baking ingredients and baked with Aaron today. Cheesecake! Customised kinder bueno cheesecake. Gosh I always forget to take photos of my cakes. ): It turned out really well and I put less sugar so it tasted even better, my mum always complain too sweet. Teppanyaki @ Hilltop for dinner and there ends this long weekend. Happy, satisfied. (:

2011-05-12T11:43:00.000+08:00

Freedom and I Just Met.

Last paper was okay, surprisingly. Thought it'd be a million times worse than prelims. Luckily because of that my mood for the day wasn't ruined. Met Aaron at ps for dinner at Nandos. Nicer than Barcelos. (:

So then we walked around. Feel so noob. Haven't been in town for ages! There's this new shop at ps that sells stationery and each section arranged in different colours so it's really eye-catching. Feels good to say I don't need any of those for now. Cause I won't be using my stationery for hmm 4 months. Yippee! Went Cathay to buy movie tix. The ljs is gone! Feel like a mountain tortoise when I realised. But that's cause I haven't been there for some time. Sat down at starbucks a while and took a couple of pix. Haven't taken a photo with him for so long. Feel so liberated when my paper ended. Like no worries. Until unclexuan tweeted to ask about my papers. Sian.

THOR IS SO GOOD, REALLY. Then Aaron didn't believe me. But I like to watch this kinda fictional superhero shows. Idk why. He didn't think it was my type of show. I just don't like it when the bad guys come out. Cause nobody is supposed to like them, unless you're psycho. Hate the frostgiants. Go and die leh. I like the way he talks, like it just sounds really weird, in a good way. (:

Yeah and feel more noob again cause there's this new Cathay Platinum. $28 per ticket. Wah by the time we were done with the show it was damn late so obviously Aaron would miss the last bus if he were to send me back. But he still did anw and stayed till 2am and we finished watching season 4 of HIMYM. Lol. Was v tired but happy. Really thankful to him throughout this period, encouraging me before my exams when I got a nervous breakdown, giving me strength to continue persevering when I wanted to give up on econs. Texting me throughout before every paper to calm me down and always asking about how I did the moment I exited the exam hall. And up till yesterday, when my exams were over, he celebrated for me even though he still had ns the next day. I bet he's so tired now and I feel so bad. But knowing he can take his morning and aftn naps in the library, I don't feel so bad anymore. Ya they have library with ac and sometimes even a room by themselves where they dim the lights and sleep. But his nua days will be over soon.

2011-05-10T11:05:00.001+08:00

Tmr will be my last paper. But, I can't seem to get into the mood to study. I already wanna play. I wanna shop. I wanna sleep for the whole day and awake to darkness, not light. I wanna do so much. I have so much plans. So many people I wanna meet to chat, hang out, and have fun with. I miss not seeing my friends and being my crappy self. And heck, I miss dressing up! I feel so sloppy always at home and yeah, home. Can't wait for this to be over. 31 hours seem so far away.

Conclusion: Exams are kinda shit. They drain the life outta you.
Sidenote: But, I get nicer treatment during exams period. And by that I mean more small surprises outta nowhere for no reason. :D

2011-04-28T10:22:00.000+08:00

"I know what it is to not feel like you’re in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know you’re with him. You’re his."

Gerry, P.S. I Love You

***

I really love this quote so much. Because it is so true, and yes, I already blogged about it once. I was just talking on the phone to Aaron last night and this quote struck me again. It was about last weekend we were out with his friends. He felt it was prolly weird to hold my hand whatsoever so he kept his distance. But after that he just came to hold me, time and again, even though I tried shaking his hand away more times than I could've counted. He said after that he thought it was okay and felt better and whatever. Bullshit lor but whatever, he held me. Hahah. And it's not like I forced him to.

2011-04-25T17:18:00.001+08:00

Until now I still feel excited when I see that I received a text from my boyf. Time to time, when we meet, I still feel sparks in my heart and butterflies in my stomach. He makes me fall in love with him over and over again, every time without fail. (:

2011-04-21T10:43:00.000+08:00

hope lights up,

even in the darkest of nights.

get well soon.

2011-04-11T11:12:00.000+08:00

Month of April:

01) Aaron came over to surprise me when I was taking my afternoon nap. He April Fooled me saying that he got half-day off by donating blood and then saying it wasn't true. But... it was true. Lol. And he brought flowers. So happy in my half asleep state. He say cannot give everytime must give at certain unexpected timings blahblah lolol.

02 - 03) Rawr I had classes that weekend. Aaron went to pick Owen then me after my lesson in the afternoon. On Sunday, he came to school with me but just sat outside at the benches cause cannot crash and if found I cannot take exams so he was damn scared for me and just waited outside the whole time. My lecture was 6 hours btw. And his iTouch no batt so he was reading 'angels and demons'. Shanflower said he damn sweet. (:

04 - 08) I had lessons practically everyday for the whole week. Was so god damn tired. Plus I couldn't get to sleep at night and needed to wake up early in the morning. Studied with Qing for 2 days. Was really malu over something when Qing, Aaron and I went for dinner. Just for that sashimi... And, got a new case! Went for dinner at amk on Friday(08) with Aaron. He already ate at home so he just watched me eat. Pontian wanton mee. Miss it. Then he wanted to catch a movie but I gave a lot of excuses lol. Cause first, I don't really like watching the kind of movies he likes to watch, and second, I was damn tired. (830a to 630pm school on Friday). Then he was damn sian cause I almost never compromise and he watches all my kind of movies with me.

09) By the time weekends came and my nightmare of waking up early was over, there came another one. OMG auto wake up at timings between 7am to 8am! WTH. So just woke up to study lor. And was still feeling guilty about the movie thing. So planned to catch midnight movie after I studied in the afternoon. Btw saw Joanne Peh and her caucasian boyfriend at Cathay. I shall not comment, here.

10) I was doing my math past year papers at home. Went to dinner at nex and Aaron was complaining about driving to mrt accessible places cause damn a lot of people and the carparks all around were all full. Besides that, really happy with my weekend although we didn't go out much except to eat. Just stayed at home to study. The next few weeks are gonna be like that. Happy that he is actually so more than willing to accompany me while I'm studying. Told him he can go out while I just stay at home and study on my own. And he wanted to, but his friends weren't free. He says anw he's used to being bored and can do his own stuff while I'm studying so he doesn't mind. (:

*Just realised all photos instagramed.*

2011-04-01T00:06:00.006+08:00

This macaroon cake/tree so nice. Yumz.

This afternoon I was down at the M1 customer service centre at paragon, cause my phone had a bit of a small glitch. The menu key got a bit of problem, not sensitive enough and sometimes it doesn't react even if I press harder. So yay they gave me a one-on-one exchange for my iPhone4! So happy. And lucky I brought my laptop along so the guy helped me back-up everything. I never knew I had more than 100 apps. Lol. At least my game highscores still intact and my very trusted cupid zombie, Norman, on zombiefarm is safe (Aaron likes him a lot cause he damn powerful). He came to meet me at the M1 shop just now. Waited damn long for the guy to update my apps and all that stuff. By the time we were done both of us were damn hungry. But we went up to ben sherman to try polo shirt size cause he wants to buy online. Finally had dinner then walked around and went home. Wah so happened my dad bought durian. Because all the other times Aaron bought, he didn't get to eat. And today is like the 4th time we are having durian already. Durian season. Phew yesterday I only ate one. Damn heaty. Must drink more water.

2011-03-31T00:13:00.000+08:00

We made a pact, that anger should not fuel any heart-stabbing thoughts, or any piercing words, anything that could lead to broken hearts, lost souls. No matter what. What you said broke my heart in all the right places. And then you mended it with golden thread. I put feathers in the spaces left, trying to make it whole again. Now my heart is like a magpie's nest, full of treasures and secrets, glittering in the sunlight.

2011-03-23T13:52:00.000+08:00

So, this page caught my eye when I was reading People Magazine. This couple right here is Allen & Violet Large. Allen is 75 & Violet is 78. They met in 1964. Ever since 1983, they have purchased two lottery tickets every week. Last year, Violet called the lottery hotline to check out the winning numbers, & turns out they won. They won $11.2 million dollars. & guess what they did with it? They donated it all to doctors, their own country, family. & kept none for themselves. They say they are content with their ‘87 Dodge Diplomat Suburban & their 148 year old Victorian home.

Here’s a quote from Violet near the end:

” Money can’t buy happiness.”

” We have everything we need; I have Allen and he has me.”

2011-03-22T11:04:00.002+08:00

Ten Ways To Love.

♥ Listen without interrupting. (Proverbs 18)

♥ Speak without accusing. (James 1:19) - tend to blurt out stuff.

♥ Give without sparing. (Proverbs 21:26)

♥ Pray without ceasing. (Colossians 1:9) - not prayerful but I do pray at times.

♥ Answer without arguing. (Proverbs 17:1)

♥ Share without pretending. (Ephesians 4:15)

♥ Enjoy without complaint. (Philippians 2:14)

♥ Trust without wavering. (Corinthians 13:7) - every girl wavers.

♥ Forgive without punishing. (Colossians 3:13) - tickles are severe punishments.

♥ Promise without forgetting. (Proverbs 13:12)

Checked: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-03-18T22:26:00.054+08:00

Post-Prelims (Cont'd).

So I met Lynette and Josephine last Saturday. Grace couldn't join us cause it was book-out day. Had real early dinner at Gustimo's. Yum the beef salami pizza was so good. Then we went to marmalade pantry for dessert. Bombed wallet on food alone that day. Tai-tai lifestyle. (; Zoomed off to Players to watch Kenny(Lyn's bf) and his band perform. He sings good.

Okay, Saturday didn't start off really well. Was looking forward to a nice couple massage which B booked for me to destress after prelims. But in the morning then he realised he didn't book appt and that March weekends were full so he pushed it back sometime in May when my real exam would end. So we went town instead. Awfully chocolate. Super-stacked. First time. Dessert after a late late lunch. Walked around town. And then we bought food home for late dinner. Walking from ion to taka and back again. Surprised that he wanted to get a bottle of wine cause he doesn't like me to drink. Can't hold my liquor well, or maybe not at all. Lol.

Made rocher on Sunday! Swear its damn good although it's kinda different from the real rocher. Still has that crunch and chocolate-tiness. Yumzzz.

Met Qing and KK yesterday. Went chomps for dinner. Been so long since we caught up with each other and all of us were to blame cause out schedules keep conflicting. Then Aaron met us later for dessert at dessertstory. We weren't supposed to meet but he skipped his buffet dinner in camp cause it was from cookhouse and not a hotel like they said hahah. Happy day with lots of laughter as usual. They all so happy to talk about me in my face. ZSD.

HALFDAY! Went over to the airforce museum to surprise him where he was at. And he said I could've just waited at home blahblah and was wasting my time to travel down in the morning and it was so hot. But, there is no time machine. Even if there was I'd still go down hahah. Brought my cousins out too. Went Mt Faber Safra then Vivocity. Hee, lazy to elaborate. Happy day cause it felt like a Saturday. But it was a Friday. And we never got to go out on weekday afternoons with the sun out since his block leave which was in January when I had classes.

2011-03-11T13:49:00.005+08:00

Post-Prelims (9th March).

Emergency meeting with Rosette. United starbucks. Justin joined us later. Chicken rice at fareast. Chillax around town. Daily scoop at holland v.

Always joy.

Headed down to NUS to watch ling and the kings, a local and upcoming band. Clarine and I didn't like them that much. Mainly cause her voice really didn't appeal to us, at all. But, she has talent. Just that not everybody will be able to accept it all. That's life. Anw, great meetup with Cryst and Clarine.

LOL @ americanidol.

Anw, B got saf earplugs for me. To block out noise during study and sleep. Cause there's just too much disturbances around my estate and he knows I need to study in quiet environments. No loud music and other irrelevant noises.

TY B. (:

Kinda glad that this is working out well. He books out early on Friday. And most of his friends stay in, like 90%. So he can get to meet them on weekends and we meet on weekdays. So I can meet up with my friends too. Woot. Win-win! But not that we don't meet every weekends la. Just saying that we make it a point to balance out friends and us. Cause we can always meet late and, oh ya, WEEKDAYS. :D!!

Hee, can't wait to meet up with Lynette, Josephine and maybe Grace later.

Will update!

2011-03-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

Caught The Adjustment Bureau on saturday night. When maybe I should've been home studying. Oh but heck it anw. So, not to spoil it but was just thinking... All along I thought people and events and things just happen for a reason. And that when a mouse-hole shuts down on you, a huge ass gate opens behind you. Well, optimistically, I like to believe that things are this way. But, will chance or destiny matter still when your destiny is planned out for you, not to the way you'd like it. And it comes to a point when chance is all you'll ever want to count upon, to feel right again. Complicated right? Watch the movie then you'll understand. Real good show. (:

My bed possesses some dreaming power. Sometimes you have good dreams. Sometimes you have bad dreams. Esp when you nap, shorter time more productive, more dreams. That's what B said. He napped yesterday while I studied pbf (btw so glad pbf is over, finance section totally saved me) and had 2 weird dreams in an hour plus. And I just napped and had 2 bad dreams. Plus I always have bad dreams and only some are good, sadly. Even my cousins have nightmares sometimes when they crash at my place. Creepy bed. Maybe I should charge dream admission fees to sleep on my bed. HAHAH.

2011-03-01T11:06:00.017+08:00

From Dora's blog,

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Her French lecturer was saying...
"In Europe you don't have to get married before you have children. Usually people will live together first, have children together, then if it's necessary, get married. It's very uncommon to find people who get married first. Marriage should come last, or not at all. I think it's very scary that people are getting married without living together first." (Me: ?!?!)

"What's the point of getting married if you're just going to get divorced? Look at Singapore's divorce statistics. They're just like Europe's! 1 in 3 couples. Having children is what binds couples together. Not marriage. Having children is a symbol of a couple's commitment and love to one another. Marriage is just a piece of paper. So what's the point?? You agree right?"

"And also, NEVER EVER get married without first knowing each other physically. If not after you get married, you will get a huge shock if you find out that... you know... he is not up to standards. (laughs) This is why it's so important to have children first, or at least live together first."

***

swirlytoffee.bs.com

Just got me thinking. So it's like the chicken and egg - which first? Marriage or children? I agree to agree that having children is what binds couples together, but, people marry in the first place because of love. Just that it probably faded after a few years of seeing each other every single minute till they got sick of each other and some unacceptable habits were being uncovered as well. Or, maybe it's just this generation that's got something against keeping marriages going. OH WELLS JUST SAYING. Just pondering over the high divorce rates and how much these lawyers earn. Hee, nothing else. Don't think too deep into it. (:

2011-02-26T09:48:00.001+08:00

Up earlier than expected so good I can study more. Done with econs but I really just need to recap and go through everything else. Gonna skip the poa ratios for now cause it's too much to handle and yes, stats is the last thing I have to complete for these 2days then it's BAM! Prelims on Monday. And a 7week study break till exams.

Anw, should people even celebrate the sixth monthsary, like half a year? Because I feel like doing so because it happens to fall during the biennale and I feel like going but I'm like so close to exams. And NSFs have free admission. No fair. So, I really don't know if I should do something. Since B has been doing so much for me. Like competition always wanna outdo each other hahahah but not really, just wanna make each other happy. Anyhoos. Howz? I'm running out of ideas I haven't even planned his 21st. And he already told me his great plans so I cannot steal his idea. :(

2011-02-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

Aww Aaron Tan bought koi and came my place. Reward cause I've been studying hard whole day. :D And he just left. Glad that he doesn't have to stay in. :D Happiness!

2011-02-22T11:38:00.001+08:00

I know I should be studying now cause prelims is like in a week and just yesterday I was so hardworking and wanting to chiong but today after eating mac breakfast I just feel like sleeping. Hahah! I woke up at 9am ate my food and stone around at home until now. Procrastination... Econs is killing me as usual, so much to memorise but oh well, just gonna study the basic and important concepts and go back to it after prelims. Actually thought it was okay until I went through the tutorials again and comparing them with the past year exam papers. Sigh. Okay with math and stat which is good cause it is all too familiar. And more confident for poa after knowing what I suck in - financial accounting - isn't as important as what I'm better at understanding - management accounting. And yes, I only briefly went through pbf, but good thing I have 3 whole days to study for that paper. I should go study now cause Aaron Tan just texted me to go study so I'll be guai. No going out shopping and staying home for 2 weekends. :(

2011-02-18T11:34:00.001+08:00

Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion, it is not the desire to mate every second minute of the day, it is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every cranny of your body. That is just being “in love”, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.

2011-02-15T11:59:00.000+08:00

Valentine's.

B had a test on vday, what luck. Studied the whole Sunday cause if he don't pass he has to stay back, which is bad. Was very busy the whole Monday! Had to prepare and bake so many batches cause my oven so small. Anw the result was great. :D

Met B at bugis to go to the place he made reservations at. Got lost for a while cause he didn't know where I was and I didn't know where he was. ZSD. Then headed over to blu jaz. Nice place with nice ambience and teevee with soccer. Lol. But good thing he wasn't staring at the screen the whole time.

Left soon after dinner to sit somewhere and open prezzies and talk. Wanted to go udders but was so full it wasn't exactly a good idea to continue eating. B got me nightie and made a video for me. So sweet. So touched. But he got no time to burn it into a cd. Hahah. I made a 2011 calendar for him. Hee. And not forgetting the cookies! Heart and star shaped shortbread cookies and white chip macadamia his fav. :D

2011-02-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

ハローキティ (Kitty White)

Had a pre-人日 dinner yesterday with mummy's side, small uncle and big auntie. Saw Sophie, my niece. She damn cute and polite and Aussie and talks damn fast for her age. Lol. Then found out she likes hello kitty. So she came over this afternoon and I gave her some toys. Sigh, really couldn't bear to, but well... Gave her one set of the hello kitty and daniel and barbie and kelly. Omg my only kelly. Lucky I got no ken if not she will take. Lol. And she wanted my calculator but that one really cannot, need for exams. Yepp, and also gave her my luggage. I don't use it anymore. I haven't used it for years. But it's really nice and original and the sticker is still there. Anw, 人日 dinner just now. Heng Hua noodles!

So all these just got me thinking. Why do so many people like hello kitty? And it's so commercialized plus super hot-selling. Anything with a hello kitty on it, the price will be marked-up.
Have to admit I already liked it since young. But through my growing up years I wasn't exactly a fanatic about it and demanded everything to be pink and sparkly and barbie and kitty. In fact, I didn't want my room to be painted pink. Just saying. And now I'm going everywhere looking at kitty cases for my iPhone. And I should have plenty by now but AARON TAN KEEPS STOPPING ME FROM BUYING THEM. He didn't even know there's a hello kitty series and is quite curious about it and I haven't really watched it either so we might someday watch the first episode. Hahah.
So anw, well maybe people like it so much cause it's just too cute to resist. At least that's the explanation for me. Not only young girls love it, but women too. Went Ion last week and Samantha Thavasa even has a hello kitty line of bags. Seriously, it's not the childish kind but womanly kind. And the quality of the leather purse is so smooth, very nice to touch. Lol. But basically, most products do have a hello kitty line, some time or another, because they know it will sell.

Kitty 4eva~
And the irony, I do not fancy cats. Ha!

2011-02-08T14:16:00.000+08:00

Planning for vday and I'm so excited. B told me not to do anything but well, I just can't help it. It's just in my nature to do "something" HAHAHAH. At first I had a headache cause I really didn't know what to do. Was thinking of subscribing to the newpaper or fortune for him but like so insincere just spend money only. So I decided to do something handmade and meaningful. Hint: with pictures and words and dates, and it's actually useful. (; Can't tell what as yet. Cause he'll read, confirm. And also will be baking cookies! His fav white chip macadamia and something else. Wheeee! Lucky I don't have school next Monday so I have the whole day to prepare. And he got table reservations last night already. Yippee. My first actual twosome vday. :D

Going to lo hei tonight cause daddy not free tmr.

2011-02-07T11:26:00.000+08:00

I wish I could eat up your sadness. I'm sorry.

2011-02-04T19:07:00.000+08:00

everything that is wrong and everything that is bad happens for a reason.

& I hate to spoil the ending.

but, everything will be okay.

just like this albino.

turned out pretty fine.

2011-02-04T15:06:00.000+08:00

情比金坚

Did my hair, nails and lashes. First time curling my lashes. Never thought mine would be long enough to do that without extensions but the beautician said don't need to do extensions so yay. Hahah.

Pre-birthday celebration. Chocolate fondue! Twice in a week somemore. Movie night. (:

Cny eve, which also happens to be my birthday. Sucks actually. But anw, we still had fun. Went to swim and play water at jurong with all the water slides and wave pool and etc. Then had to go for reunion dinner already. But, phew the weather was fine and it was sunny but not too hot. Great weather. Thank God it didn't rain. Then after that I met B to go cut cake before ending the day. Didn't have much time and had to rush but well, no choice. We both had fun. :D

P.S. My hair colour is damn not obvious in the photos at all. Sad.

2011-02-01T12:25:00.001+08:00

The colour of February is Scarlet.

2011-01-28T14:24:00.000+08:00

Taken from a fellow srjcian blog. Yay! COP is now science 14 arts 15 btw. :D

***

SR FTW PLEASE! ♥

IF ANY OF THE TOP JCS DO THIS THEN YOU TALK LA KAY

- TEACHERS STAY TILL 10PM WHEN SCHOOL CLOSES FOR CONSULTATION.

- TEACHERS WHO COMPILE AWESOME PAWNAGE TEXTBOOKS FOR YOU OUT OF 2 INCHES BOOKS.

- TEACHERS WHO GO THROUGH 4 ROUNDS OF HEAVY MARKING COMMON TEST/ MID YEAR/ PRE A'S/ PRELIMS.

- TEACHERS WHO FIGHT FOR YOU AGAINST OTHER TEACHERS' FOR YOUR RIGHTS.

- YEAR HEAD MESSAGING YOU BECAUSE SHE WAS CONCERNED ABOUT YOUR CLASSMATE.

- PRINCIPAL GOING THROUGH YOUR RESULTS ONE BY ONE AND SPECIFICALLY TELLING YOUR TEACHER WHAT TO DO WITH YOUR WEAKNESS.
- WHOLE SCHOOL(even the cleaners) TRAINING FOR 10KM RUN FOR THE WHOLE YEAR FOR CHARITY, I THIS KIND OF SAI KA ALSO RAN 100KM IN TWO YEARS PLEASE

SRJCIAN, for life!

I ♥ SR!

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alynmagenta.bs.com

2011-01-26T21:14:00.000+08:00

Scent I've been coveting since forever. But using I Loewe You Tonight now.

2011-01-24T13:30:00.000+08:00

♥

sea otters hold hands when they sleep, so they don’t drift away from each other.

2011-01-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

2 slippers. 2 heels. 1 boots. 2 dresses. 3 tops. 3 shorts. 1 swimsuit. 2 belts.
sent some old stuff for recycling. need to send more next month.
new hair.
(:

2011-01-20T01:01:00.001+08:00

Firsts.

Okay, just called 999. And just feel that I have to say something about it cause it seems important enough, and it is my first time ever making such a call. I was a guai kid who did not prank call the police. Anw, there's this woman living upstairs me screaming. And then I heard this man(her husband I assume) shouting at her. And then some loud sounds like moving of furniture or banging of the floor or other furniture, or worse, a head against the wall. Then the screaming continued into crying and pleading and screaming and crying mixed like wailing and agony. Agony was what I heard which made me call 999. I did hesitate, no doubt, cause after all I didn't know what was happening. But, I really hope nothing bad happened and what I did would at least help. Then the policeman still ask: "does the screaming sound like she's having a dispute or she's having fun?" WTF LA. Seriously. The kind of scream that sends chills down your bones enough to make you shiver for her and feel her pain. What do you think?

2011-01-19T13:25:00.002+08:00

You don't have to be sorry for whatever happened. Because that is what hearts do, and that is what happens. Hearts mend hearts. And hearts break hearts.

2011-01-19T10:17:00.004+08:00

The Pretty Reckless.

Make Me Wanna Die.

Nothing Left To Lose.

Just Tonight.

Miss Nothing.

2011-01-17T11:00:00.005+08:00

For the past week,

POP. Floating platform @ Marina Bay. Rest at his place. Changi Airport. Fetch my parents (they went thailand). Blueberry and kaya waffle. * CNY shopping. Fareast. Ion. Taka. Seaweed chips. * Monthsary. Cooking fest. TPY park. Picnic. Bugis. Let's Sweets. * B drove me to ubi driving school to ask about my pdl. Novena. Angie the choice. Durian crepes. Durian puffs. * Drove my grandma around. Collect her medicine at bukit timah and went to markets there and somewhere near bugis street. Tuition Owen and Diouf. Thanks B. * Waited outside CMPB in the car. Vivocity. Pet shops. Ikea Alexander. * Breakfasts. Photobooth. Monopoly deal. * Suntec. Fountain. Carrefour. Royce. Dinners & Movies at his place cause my mum almost never cooks and we always eat out if eating with them. Taking turns to nua at his place and my place. Saw his baby pics his mum showed me. Lol.

Airforce. Above all.

Happy for you.

2011-01-14T18:25:00.001+08:00

2011-01-11T14:18:00.000+08:00

Fate is like a strange, unpopular restaurant, filled with odd waiters who bring you things you never asked for and don’t always like.

-Lemony Snicket

2011-01-08T19:13:00.002+08:00

Love Note.

2011-01-07T23:36:00.002+08:00

addicted to emotionality.

2011-01-04T19:18:00.002+08:00

2011-01-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

I really wanna go to UK for my third year to do my final year study there. BUT, I'm just not confident I'll be able to survive alone in somehow unfarmiliar and strange, I'm just not independent enough, and the thought of it sucks, cause very soon I'll not be a teenager anymore and very soon after that I'll be an adult. Also, I will be super homesick all the time I'll just turn into some emokid and try to seek solace in someone else that I might either turn lesbian or cheat on my boyfriend. So, erm, no thanks. I'll stay in Singapore instead.

2011-01-02T20:06:00.002+08:00

2010,

January:
Still working at ntuc unity with Qing&Eliza since A's ended.
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February:
~~Tried to get my driving licence.~~
My birthday.

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March:
HK trip + Shenzhen.

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April:
Back to SR for Mr Ng's birthday.
Quit my admin job.
HK, again.
Met up with friends I haven't seen in a long time due to A's.

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May:
Started work at Topshop.

Korean lessons with Huiyu&Jaime.

~~First~~ date with Aaron.

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June:

Volunteered more @ Acres.

Bare your Sole event @ Habitat for Humanity.

Clubbing with Topshop/Topman people.

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July:

First time trying contacts.
Busy with Topshop.
Agreed to work 5-6 days a week instead of the 3-4 I agreed to in the contract.

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August:

Stopped working entirely.

Baking fest with Jo - brownies, cheesecakes, mousse.

Meet-up with friends. Yifen&Yeehui going overseas.

University of London.

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September:

Busy with school.

Busy looking for people to tuition.

Busy dating.

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October:

Attached.

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November:

Aaron's birthday.

Boyfriend's enlistment in army.

~~Deleted livejournal.~~

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December:

~~2 weeks break from school.~~
Christmas.

New Year's Eve.

Hello 20!!

2011-01-01T12:56:00.001+08:00

Everything is Illuminated.

First day of 2011. This year marks the end of my teenage years. Time to think. Time to start planning ahead. Look forward. Everything is becoming real. Think real, now, no more dreamy castles and fairy tales and clouds that don't exist.

Countdown yesterday and went home with boyfriend. Wrote 3 new year resolutions for each other that we'd keep to during his one week block leave. The 2 envelopes are staring at me now and somehow I'm very tempted to open mine. But I won't, yet. Wonder what 3 stupid things he wrote. Hahah. Better not be too stupid. Sigh. I'd faint if he wrote to eat bean sprouts. DIE ON THE SPOT. Decorated his nicely and he got damn stressed cause his art is not that great. Lol. His awesome idea btw. ♥

2010-12-26T23:46:00.002+08:00

P.S. I Love You

I know what it is to not feel like you’re in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know you’re with him. You’re his.

2010-12-26T21:23:00.011+08:00

Sent the boyfriend off to tekong and just got home. Feels unusually different this time. Same familiarity with a twist. Maybe cause it'll just be for 2 days and he'll be out again. Everything seems to be moving fast. Minutes and seconds just slip past and before you know it, a new year is here once again.

Have you ever felt unhappy when you know you shouldn't have been so? Have you ever had a moment by yourself, surrounded by people, soulless, when you know you should've keep your mind with your body till everything passed? Have you ever felt guilty after that? Have you ever felt you were probably too emotional for your own good?

P.S. I want my future room to be white, pastel, and dreamy...

2010-12-20T11:00:00.001+08:00

Reality Can Be Sweet at Times.

Take a leap of faith. Like what I learnt in finance, high risk equals high returns. Risk everything you've got, just for the chance to be soaked in love, happiness, bliss and whatnot. Because if you don't, you might never feel it. And when you're in it, then you'll know, that everything so far has been well worth all that has happened be it good or bad. & when you're happy, you don't have to tell the world, your friends will tell them for you, because they can see and feel your happiness.

2010-12-17T20:43:00.001+08:00

I'm the kind of depressed and dead now that if someone were to attack me I wouldn't have the energy to retaliate.

2010-12-17T11:03:00.002+08:00

2010-12-14T18:01:00.008+08:00

Spicy.

C'mon, for the girls out there (my era), at some point of time you should've heard about them, either loved them, if not liked them. Or maybe neither, then never mind. iPod was on shuffle and their song came up. Haven't heard their song for a long time and it's still nice! The lyrics are also meaningful and about love, all kinds of love.Emma Bunton. Damn cute and pretty. Liked her a lot cause of her cute image. Lol.

Posh Spice. Pretty, but she had a scary vibe so I preferred Emma. Heh.

2010-12-09T22:46:00.001+08:00

Mooning.

I pretended to agree with you that long distance was a bad idea. Truth is, I would have wanted to date you even if you'd moved to one of Saturn's moons.

(dearoldlove.tumblr)

2010-12-08T21:37:00.000+08:00

I miss those days I could just sit beside you and stare blankly into space and never feel like we'd run out of things to talk about.

P.S. Really happy to receive the bouquet today. Really surprised. :D

2010-12-07T19:28:00.002+08:00

Contradiction/

What I have now is great. I have the freedom I've longed for, while being in a relationship, and at the same time being loved and being missed by someone. But, to know that there is a division, that there is no way perpetually to be together physically isn't all that great. Well, coped with it well enough these few weeks. 600+ more days to go. Enjoying my own me time and also using the free time I have to study and do whatever I need and want to do. Have not had such a feeling for a long time, cause we met almost everyday. Anyway, really looking forward to what I'll be getting tmr. He told me to stay home and wait for something from about 9am-11am. Wonder what it is. Guessing it's a parcel, but still..what? I'll know tmr. Better wake up on time. I've survived almost 2 days without sms-ing and calling. Amazed.

2010-12-05T22:24:00.001+08:00

The one you'll be with ultimately, will not be the one who doesn't hurt you. He will be the one who will hurt you the most, and at the same time make you happy the most. He will be the one that's gonna cut the deepest wound through you, but you will stay. You will fight with him, for him, for the love. This is the pain that should remind you that you're human, not pain from finding wrong love but pain from fighting to keep love.

2010-11-24T16:47:00.001+08:00

"Lean into me now and kiss me with the weight of what we have endured."

-Tyler Knott

2010-11-20T11:15:00.001+08:00

At least I made an effort. And I continue doing what I do till the maximum of my ability or at least to a point when I know I don't wish to go on anymore. Know this. Know that I will try my utmost best. Hard as it is, the fruit beared will be sweet beyond sugar. And this is what spurs me - the fruit - to be shared with you.

2010-11-16T17:50:00.001+08:00

Bursting with excitement from all over and it's killing me. My heart is pounding so fast it can't stop. I'm so close to death I can't breathe. Only you can cure this.

2010-11-15T17:06:00.003+08:00

Oh, c'mon, get over your insecurities. Grow up. Because sooner or later, you'll just become a burden. Sometimes change can be good, and for the better. But I haven't seen that in you, at all.

2010-11-11T19:55:00.001+08:00

Goodbye LJ.

Just decided to delete my lj. Anyways I don't write on it often and when I do, usually I'm just being bitchy. The reason I deleted it was so that I could bitch openly and oops if you happen to think you're the lucky one then too bad for you. I have nothing to hide. Furthermore, life's been good to me and there's pretty nothing much I've been unhappy about, so yeah. I'll just be faithful and stick to blogger. My first blog afterall.

2010-11-11T13:44:00.001+08:00

2 days,

was all it took. No longer crying and it's good. Probably getting used to it. Still, the pining and the longing is crazy. At least I'm looking on the bright side now. Looking forward to the end of the day and the start of a new day. But still, something seems to be missing. Less communication, and it sucks. I cannot not talk. I need to talk, like all the time. Maybe explains why I'm blogging more now. One less important main person to talk to. Nevertheless, I'll be fine.

2010-11-10T11:48:00.000+08:00

Emptied.

It's only the second day and I'm already feeling like shit. Correction. I felt like shit since before it all even started. Everything reminds me of you. I can't control my thoughts. I can't control my emotions. I can't control my tears. Even on the bus this morning I was on the brink of tears. Getting ready for school wearing my necklace and earring I'd think of you cause they were from you. Locking my door on the way out of house and back home I'd look at the keychain and think of you. Taking my wallet to tap ezlink or buy food I'd think of you again. And I love the wallet even though it wasn't the right size cause it was from you. I miss you so much. Typing this I'm teary-eyed once again. But then again I keep telling myself I have to be supportive and not be like a spoilt brat cause I believe it's what almost everyone has to go through and I don't want you to lose focus either while training and injure yourself or something. So, as usual, I will cry and when I'm tired I will pick myself up. This is a cycle. And this is how my days pass.

Don't have to feel sad for me or whatever cause nobody can help it. I cannot even control how I feel now so I believe nobody else can. But, if you wanna help or feel that you should, you can always text me and distract me. Better than nothing. Taboo: do not mention anything about tekong.

2010-11-07T06:51:00.001+08:00

What would happen when your world is close to falling apart and you realise the one thing you had to fall back on wasn't there anymore? Not there for you anymore. Or rather, could not be there for you anymore.

I have to stay strong. I will be.

2010-10-30T07:20:00.001+08:00

It's the second last day of October, 720am, and here I am, waiting for my cheesecake to bake, waiting for my pimple to ripe. Can't wait for later. (;

2010-10-22T11:12:00.003+08:00

CHANCE

one in a million.

And I realised the very reason why you're unable to fall in is because of the lack of courage. Have the courage to fall in. Find that someone who'd give you that courage. So that whatever happens, nothing will be able to stop you anymore. I found him.

2010-10-20T04:58:00.000+08:00

Feel like I'm on the verge of explosion. So bloody stressed up AND to add, nobody is helping me cope with it. Well, the only one who could and would wouldn't be able to anyway. Not his fault. Seriously don't like planning stuff with people who are unresponsive and not responsible and don't give a damn. Like hello? Get back to me. I don't have your numbers. Worst thing, the only venue I thought was perfect is now booked. Congrats. Because I waited so long for you guys to reply and still yet, no reply. Like it's almost been a week or more. Maybe it'd just be the two of us and no others. Better.

Just a place to vent. Keep your comments to yourself. TYVM.

2010-10-10T10:10:00.004+08:00

Love Bubble.

the next sunlight ♥

Taken from a fellow srjcian blog. Yay! COP is now science 14 arts 15 btw. :D***

SR FTW PLEASE! ♥

Taken from a fellow srjcian blog. Yay! COP is now science 14 arts 15 btw. :D

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